O the glory!
Yours. Truly. | Thursday, April 16, 2015 -- 3:17 PM EDT
Most high we lift it up... be glorified forever!!! Jesus has overcome... declare it now together
Alright... Its a new day... yesterday was a long day... after spending months in boston hibernation I spent over 3 hours directly under the sun.... it felt good... but I wanted to go home and nap... yet I had to go do a close shift... my brain was all dried up and it was a tough shift..
Ultimatly I am glad I didn't get arrested, accidentally killed, strangled or whatever by some jacked up cop. There was one plain clothed officer who came out and was very aggressive telling me he was going to arrest me, that I was trespassing on private property on the side walk, that I needed a permit to protest.... luckily I was there by myself...
One uniformed officer was there and very nice, and I am grateful for that. They asked me for id and what not.. I told them I didn't have to give it to them and even if I had id. That I wasn't breaking any laws and wasn't being detained. The aggressive guy tried to tell me iwas blocking through traffic on the sidewalk... so I moved next to a tree. I had a scarf over my face, he tried to tell me that I couldnt wear mask, that it was illegal. He pulled another uniformed officer out that was all geared up to try and intimidate me or what not. I told them that I live ina free state and that some people may claim I need a permit to protest but that kind of limits the whole point of protesting and free speech doesn't it?
I thought about the “free speech zones” its all fucked. Yet this morning I read an article and watched a cspan video of people on the hill discussing how bloggers and their conspiracy theories are really just agents of a foreign government, of terror, of disinformation, that there is no truth in what bloggers are talking about...
http://www.infowars.com/bloggers-compared-to-isis-during-congressional-hearing/
I tell you about my oppression and they try to tell you that is a conspiracy theory... I mean all you have to do is open your eyes and you can see how much you are being oppressed. But no, the want you to just think that it is some kind of conspiracy theory...
I had my guitar with me, they asked me whats in the case, I told them a guitar and offered to show them to put their minds at ease but I think they very likely would have arrested me or something had I not. But it wasn't about unreasonable search and seizure. I didn't want these guys to get the wrong idea, and I realize the oppressive state of mind these guys are in when it comes to bombs and what not, how they have been trained... how they think...
So I show him the guitar to reassure him that this is nothing but a protest..... I have a sign leaning up against a stone block in the ground barricading the federal building from the sidewalk. “Truthoppression.org” I have to move it so they don't arrest me for “trespassing on federal property.” I tell them that I have rights... that I know my rights.... the uniformed officer says he knows but the plain clothed aggressive guy tells me he knows the constitution and my rights too... yet he threatened me with arrest for standing on the sidewalk with a sign... for wearing a scarf over my face...
the reasonable officer asks me how long I am planning on doing this.... and I tell him... I have to work at 330 so just a couple of hours...
Ultimately they get called back, and I am allowed to stand there... on the sidewalk....
But its a conspiracy theory!! All of it... you didnt see matial law on the streets of boston after the boston martathon bombing when police warrentlessly searched homes and curfews were in effect..
That was reasonable... right? people were scared... Its a conspiracy theory that we are living in a police state that thrives off of terror and fear, that our rights as free human beings are oppressed... that free minded people are in fact the enemy...
http://www.infowars.com/police-trained-nationwide-that-informed-americans-are-domestic-terrorists/
http://www.infowars.com/military-bulletin-labels-patriot-groups-militia-domestic-terrorists/
Yet I am called the domestic terrorist? I am the one instilling terror? I am doing the exact opposite!! I am ar
I mean that video I watched yesterday of harry reid calling the people protesting the BLM on the bundy ranch “domestic terrorists.”
SEE... the agenda isn't freedom and democracy... its tyranny, its fear... they don't want to address the grievances of these people concerned about tyrannical overreaches of government on individual liberty... its easier for them to just stigmatize any dissent from the official government policy as “conspiracy theories” or “extreme” “right wing” etc.
http://www.infowars.com/the-video-the-feds-dont-want-you-to-see/
http://www.rightwingwatch.org/content/alex-jones-marks-bundy-ranch-anniversary-false-flag-attack-conspiracy-theory
That is the real danger... when society uses fear to discourage dissent. To dismiss an opposing view with prejudice and as just some kind of “brainwashed,” “bible-thumping,” “savage,” “deranged,”
oppression.....
But no... I told some girl that I was protesting my oppression yesterday at work, she was curious because she thought that I couldn't be oppressed because I was a white male.... wtf?
#blacklivesmatter
The sickness of the divisive nature of man, of the ego...
I watched that one year old girl at her birthday party having this photo-shoot... boy... we put ourselves under a spell since before we can remember...
Is it a conspiracy that every government, society in history ultimately moves to consolidate power in the name of security of some external, oppressive threat and ultimately becomes their own oppressor in the process. Every government in history.... What then can we do???
….
God...
“I am not ashamed.. of the cross that made a way.. the only name that saves is... Jeeeeesuuuuuus....”
….
I remember that speech as I stood outside the JFK Federal building...
“The very word 'secrecy' is repugnant in a free and open society; and we are as a people inherently and historically opposed to secret societies, to secret oaths and to secret proceedings. We decided long ago that the dangers of excessive and unwarranted concealment of pertinent facts far outweighed the dangers which are cited to justify it. Even today, there is little value in opposing the threat of a closed society by imitating its arbitrary restrictions. Even today, there is little value in insuring the survival of our nation if our traditions do not survive with it. And there is very grave danger that an announced need for increased security will be seized upon by those anxious to expand its meaning to the very limits of official censorship and concealment. That I do not intend to permit to the extent that it is in my control. And no official of my Administration, whether his rank is high or low, civilian or military, should interpret my words here tonight as an excuse to censor the news, to stifle dissent, to cover up our mistakes or to withhold from the press and the public the facts they deserve to know....
It is the unprecedented nature of this challenge that also gives rise to your second obligation--an obligation which I share. And that is our obligation to inform and alert the American people--to make certain that they possess all the facts that they need, and understand them as well--the perils, the prospects, the purposes of our program and the choices that we face.
No President should fear public scrutiny of his program. For from that scrutiny comes understanding; and from that understanding comes support or opposition. And both are necessary. I am not asking your newspapers to support the Administration, but I am asking your help in the tremendous task of informing and alerting the American people. For I have complete confidence in the response and dedication of our citizens whenever they are fully informed.
I not only could not stifle controversy among your readers--I welcome it. This Administration intends to be candid about its errors; for as a wise man once said: "An error does not become a mistake until you refuse to correct it." We intend to accept full responsibility for our errors; and we expect you to point them out when we miss them.
Without debate, without criticism, no Administration and no country can succeed--and no republic can survive. That is why the Athenian lawmaker Solon decreed it a crime for any citizen to shrink from controversy. And that is why our press was protected by the First Amendment-- the only business in America specifically protected by the Constitution- -not primarily to amuse and entertain, not to emphasize the trivial and the sentimental, not to simply "give the public what it wants"--but to inform, to arouse, to reflect, to state our dangers and our opportunities, to indicate our crises and our choices, to lead, mold, educate and sometimes even anger public opinion.
This means greater coverage and analysis of international news--for it is no longer far away and foreign but close at hand and local. It means greater attention to improved understanding of the news as well as improved transmission. And it means, finally, that government at all levels, must meet its obligation to provide you with the fullest possible information outside the narrowest limits of national security--and we intend to do it.
It was early in the Seventeenth Century that Francis Bacon remarked on three recent inventions already transforming the world: the compass, gunpowder and the printing press. Now the links between the nations first forged by the compass have made us all citizens of the world, the hopes and threats of one becoming the hopes and threats of us all. In that one world's efforts to live together, the evolution of gunpowder to its ultimate limit has warned mankind of the terrible consequences of failure. And so it is to the printing press--to the recorder of man's deeds, the keeper of his conscience, the courier of his news--that we look for strength and assistance, confident that with your help man will be what he was born to be: free and independent.”
Can america be strong? Can america endure? So that we can be what we were born to be? Will we be resolute for the world... look the devil in the eye and declare “I AM FREE!!!!”
“Ohhh what a savior!!!!! Wonderfulllll Jeeesusssss!!!!! ohhh what a saviorrrrr!!!!!!!”
Fear... it has no place in the future....
“Your love has rescued us... the cross delivered all our hearts from feeeeearr.... our hoooooope is heeeeere.... you came to make a way... jesus you came to raise the deeeeeead to liiiiiife.... our soooooong will riiiiise..... oh great and mighty king... you reign in majesty... before your throne we sing... holy... HOLY.... oh great and mighty king.... for all eternity... we bow with heaven and sing.... hooooolyyy hoooolyyyyyyy!!”
We cant do this alone... this is my point... we will turn away from jesus because of the history of the use of religion and the manipulation of men... of dogma.... because of “science” whatever other reason we convince ourselves not to seek... not to ask....
And it isn't God who will forsake us.. it is we who forsake God...
“Your glory fills this place.... we shout unending praise.... forever halleluiah... FOREVER HALLELUIAH!!!!!!!!!!”
So on yahoo this morning I saw this story about celebrities... typical... but this was about celebrities who avoided taxes... it was about their fate... Lauryn Hill got jail time, Wesley Snipes.... but I am not oppressed.... I am a white male....
See I have to give money to the government for abortions of babies... but I am against womens rights... I have nothing to say about the matter... what about the baby's rights? When does life have rights???
“Well when its not dependent on the mother for survival...”
“Well why dont we start aborting little children who don't know how to survive in the wild, who cant work in society... all they do is divert resources...”
For fucks sake... but I will get arrested if I don't pay taxes to something like this....
But I cant be oppressed... its a conspiracy theory....
I could go out and congregate with like minded people attempt to start a community where we don't compromise what is right... but then the government will come and burn our homes and slaughter us because we didn't toe the line... because I didn't toe the line...
#waco #civilwar
Fuck...
“precious compassion that pours.. from the wounds that have won us our salvation.... sin was strong but the savior is stronger... come let us worship him....
Great was the debt that we owed... and how high was the price of our healing... paid in full by the one who is worthy... come let us worship him....
Raise to life... with christ.. the savior in his name... a new creation now... our song will rise adoring christ the loooooooord....
Death overcome by the word... that was spoken before it was finsihed... jesus saves is our song everlasting... come let us worship him....
Raised to life with christ the savior... in his name a new creation... now our soul will rise.. adoring christ the loooooord....
Sin was strong... but jesus is stronger.... our shame was great but.... jesus your greater.... sin was strong but.... jesus is stronger.... our shame was great but.... jesus your greater.... sin was strong but... jesus is stronger... our shame was great but... jesus your greater... sin was strong but.... jesus is stronger... our shame was great but jesus your greater!!!!”
Is there anyone out there? Is there anyone listening? Am I alone? I just watched a video of “Elevation Church”s website and it is such a huge church... so many people... I thought about do they know what they are contributing to with our government.... do they know what goes on beyond the pr press releases that passes for journalism in the news... I remember the story that broke about how “independent analysts” used by fox news are really just working for the govenremtn and disseminating talking points they want... and the other stations are no different... ivestigative journalism is dead for the sake of “industry” for the sake of people's ego's.. That was why I wanted to start the website I wanted... to help turn the tides... empower everyday people to become the eyes and ears.... to become the watchdog... empower them to make money at the same time so that they could devote more time to investigating.... but I realized something since creating that website... that nothing can change if we dont realize the truth... of ourselves.... which is why I have embarked on this mission for now.... this is the foundation....
So I was going to write this email with a bunch of quotes from the bible to share with my family in response to some email, which I cant remember, but as I was writing it... the list of quotes grew and grew..... but I realized that a lot of it could be lost without insight, I realized a lot of it could be lost because its from the bible... so I wrote... I don't really know how I expected it to play out but its play out now on this....
I realized I had to take it out onto the word processor... really take my time with this one... because otherwise people will just glance over it...
I mean, yesterday, some people just walked by me as I stood in front of the JFK Federal building and looked the other way... they didn't just not care what I had to say, they made it a point of looking the other way... keeping their eyes down... headph0ones in...
I had to make sure that peoples eyes didnt just glance over as they read the old english of king james...... because I knew thats what happens... Sometimes when I read... my mind will wander... yet I am reading.... I could finish a whole page or two and stop and not really understand or know what I just read...
“8Also I heard the voice of the Lord, saying, Whom shall I send, and who will go for us? Then said I, Here am I; send me.
9And he said, Go, and tell this people, Hear ye indeed, but understand not; and see ye indeed, but perceive not.
10Make the heart of this people fat, and make their ears heavy, and shut their eyes; lest they see with their eyes, and hear with their ears, and understand with their heart, and convert, and be healed.
11Then said I, Lord, how long? And he answered, Until the cities be wasted without inhabitant, and the houses without man, and the land be utterly desolate,
12And the LORD have removed men far away, and there be a great forsaking in the midst of the land.
13But yet in it shall be a tenth, and it shall return, and shall be eaten: as a teil tree, and as an oak, whose substance is in them, when they cast their leaves: so the holy seed shall be the substance thereof.” - Isaiah 6
"10And when he was alone, they that were about him with the twelve asked of him the parable. 11And he said unto them, Unto you it is given to know the mystery of the kingdom of God: but unto them that are without, all these things are done in parables: 12That seeing they may see, and not perceive; and hearing they may hear, and not understand; lest at any time they should be converted, and their sins should be forgiven them.” - Mark 4
But I was persistent... I recognize that I just spaced out, and dont just carry on with the book... I might have missed something critical to understanding the plot or some implied message that the author took the time to include those words... I go back... I reread... I reanalyze... I think critically about how I initially understood things, the context of my own life versus the context of the words themselves...
Yesterday, after I stopped protesting I went and got lunch with a friend who is really rebellious and purposefully avoids anything having to do with jesus and god... not really giving it a chance because he thinks he knows everything... the associations he has with the bible or jesus has disuaded him from pursuing the truth... guilt by association...
He would tell me about how he went to church tons when he was little.....
I told him that I did the same too... but it wasn't until my eyes were opened... that I actually sought the truth, that I asked for the truth... that the truth was revealed to me...
I likened it to listening to one of his favorite songs... He may have heard it a hundred times before, but now on the hundred and first time he listens to the same song but something in his life has changed.. he heres a lyric and makes a connection or understanding that he never realized before...
He has never read the bible... he jokes about the common excerpts cited to dissuade people from ever picking up the bible... things taken out of context... or out of intended meaning...
I reassure that it is just inspiration... not absolute... and that it is pretty good and ask him to be more critical.. question whether or not his thought is true or something programmed for him to think... a trick...
The greatest trick the devil ever pulled was convincing the world he didn't exist...
Anyways... I am gonna try to get to that stuff I wrote that started out as an email.. but I want to go to yoga in a minute.... but before I get ready to do that I just want to fit one last thing in here...
Those christians I saw getting baptized... they see that getting baptized is just another ritual... the physical baptism is a symbol.. an expression of being born again, a declaration of life in jesus.. So don't let it become a ritual... this is my own baptism... this blog.. a public declaration... while still technically anonymous.. this is a parable of my life so that those who just see people like my as “fanatical,” “right-wing,” “extreme” can maybe not trivialize and dismiss who I am with a single word... so that they can do more than just see me, but understand me....
“1There was a man of the Pharisees, named Nicodemus, a ruler of the Jews: 2The same came to Jesus by night, and said unto him, Rabbi, we know that thou art a teacher come from God: for no man can do these miracles that thou doest, except God be with him. 3Jesus answered and said unto him, Verily, verily, I say unto thee, Except a man be born again, he cannot see the kingdom of God.
4Nicodemus saith unto him, How can a man be born when he is old? can he enter the second time into his mother's womb, and be born? 5Jesus answered, Verily, verily, I say unto thee, Except a man be born of water and of the Spirit, he cannot enter into the kingdom of God. 6That which is born of the flesh is flesh; and that which is born of the Spirit is spirit. 7Marvel not that I said unto thee, Ye must be born again. 8The wind bloweth where it listeth, and thou hearest the sound thereof, but canst not tell whence it cometh, and whither it goeth: so is every one that is born of the Spirit.” - John 3
So I am about to go into work today... and I am gonna ask to say something about how I have seen things go … we are understaffed and about to take on a lot more business in the summer, with greater occupancy with the patio and what not... and I see things that upsets me... I am going to tell them...
I know we all like each other and we respect each other and despise when we get treated like shit by customers... management and what not...
What I am going to say will ultimately go along with something like this... Last night I closed... and my last table was there all drunk and they were there until about 12:15.... they wanted to tip more by authorizing more on a card... I told them that I couldn't authorize more than the total amount of the check, I explained that I will authorize the amount and then they can leae wahtever after I give them the check... clearly in their drunken stupor they didn't understand what I said and proceeded to not leave me a single cent on a 200 dollar check. I get paid 3 bucks an hour...
I expressed my frustration... not at the table.. but at the system...
How, by law, the restaurant is required to pay me the minimum wage, 8 something... but still... fuck that... Luckily I work at a pool house... but what if I didn't? I haven't before.. and I can tell you.. if iwasnt living with my parents... I would not be able to survive...
“well the government si tehre for you...”
Since when was it the governments job to subsidize the corporate elites proftits you fascist?!
I am sorry... but please.... these elite types hate when people talking about taxing them but they are all for getting their fucking subsidies, indirectly or by wahtever fucking means...
Besides... I know what accepting that government money translates into.. I am not going to fall for that trap....
“oo the restaurant has to be profitable.. or there is no restaurant..” blah blah blah....
I made the remark to the chef that pretty soon it will just be a bunch of mcdonalds people getting served fake food by robots and dying of disease and we will wonder where the fuck we went wrong...
But last night I went through the motions... I was bitter at first but realized “they know not what they do.” I was frustrated.... at myself... that I subject myself to this....
When that girl asked me how I was oppressed I told her that “well its myself as the main oppressor” and continued on “and then there is the government and what not.”
She just continued to wonder how this white male felt oppressed... I would have tried to understand but I knew she would hear and not listen...
I recognize that its hard for us to see past the cloud... beyond what is in front of us.... but I am standing right in front of you... with a sign... asking for help... and you look away....
But, at work, they see me struggling... they are not some guy off in an office where I am just some number “out of site and out of mind...” but they just stand there and watch... “hey... its not my section...” “its not my front server...” they wait for me to come up to them and tell them exactly what to do when they know what they need to do... They know.... yet they wait till we are drowning in the weeds to light a fire under their feet...
Church... my fellow workers... can we treat each other with respect...? Can we take the time to recognize what we have chosen to continue to ignore... to not see? To go back... understand...? Can we be baptized in spirit and not just water? Can we sit by no longer and allow ourselves to be manipulated for the sake of our own fears... can we forsake our lives.. our own egos?
“27Then answered Peter and said unto him, Behold, we have forsaken all, and followed thee; what shall we have therefore? 28And Jesus said unto them, Verily I say unto you, That ye which have followed me, in the regeneration when the Son of man shall sit in the throne of his glory, ye also shall sit upon twelve thrones, judging the twelve tribes of Israel. 29And every one that hath forsaken houses, or brethren, or sisters, or father, or mother, or wife, or children, or lands, for my name's sake, shall receive an hundredfold, and shall inherit everlasting life. 30But many that are first shall be last; and the last shall be first.” - Matthew 19
“42And the Lord said, Who then is that faithful and wise steward, whom his lord shall make ruler over his household, to give them their portion of meat in due season? 43Blessed is that servant, whom his lord when he cometh shall find so doing. 44Of a truth I say unto you, that he will make him ruler over all that he hath. 45But and if that servant say in his heart, My lord delayeth his coming; and shall begin to beat the menservants and maidens, and to eat and drink, and to be drunken; 46The lord of that servant will come in a day when he looketh not for him, and at an hour when he is not aware, and will cut him in sunder, and will appoint him his portion with the unbelievers. 47And that servant, which knew his lord's will, and prepared not himself, neither did according to his will, shall be beaten with many stripes. 48But he that knew not, and did commit things worthy of stripes, shall be beaten with few stripes. For unto whomsoever much is given, of him shall be much required: and to whom men have committed much, of him they will ask the more.” - Luke 12
gotta go to yoga...
back... gotta go to work.. uploading this for now..